Suzie writes:Sun, Aug 31st 1997
I am 18. Lately I have been thinking that maybe I'm gay. I'm attracted to some guys, but that is only because I ask myself if I could be attracted to them. Let me explain--when I was younger, friends would ask me, "Do you think he's cute?" I would say that I didn't know, because in reality I didn't think of guys that way. So I got into the habit of looking at guys only to see if they were cute or not just so when someone asked I could tell them, yes or no. But I have always looked at women in that way. I would say she's pretty, etc. And I often have dreams where I am "with" another woman. I am afraid to be gay, and sometimes I cry over it. I'm not afraid myself, but just afraid that if I were, or am, how could I tell people, friends and family? I would be afraid to tell them if it were true. I don't know whether or not I am. And I don't know what questions to ask myself to see if I am gay. My step-dad is against the whole gay thing, but that's not why I'm afraid to tell anyone. I have a hard time understanding my feelings, and a hard time making friends. I haven't had many boyfriends, and don't really want any. I sometimes tell myself that I do, but I'm not sure. I am so confused and upset about this. Maybe you would know someone like this and how they solved their problem, or something I could do to clear up my own confusion. I would really appreciate an answer, thanks. Suzie
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